Will we have a wedding dance?

I have a problem. Wedding dance. Me and mr J went to a wheelchair dance course last saturday, basicly to get an idea of what possibilities there might be for us on the dance floor. We have partied in night clubs before, but tradicional couple dances are not so familiar to us. We actually have danced couple dances about 5 times max. Lates at a boat trip and at my fathers wedding.

I have a mental problem with the dancing. I have been able to walk, run and dance when I was a lot younger, so I know how rythm feels and how body can move with it. But it feels really different for me, when I now have to do the dancing from a motorised wheelchair. I can not lift my hand my self in the air, I cannot shake my ass or do amazing foot work. Actually what I feel I can do is just drive with a wheelchair and hope I don´t hit anyone elses toes, specially my dancing partners.

I know what most people say: it doesn´t have to look the same. Main thing is that we feel we are enjoying the music and movement together. But seriously, when the whole wedding party is watching us.. it is not anymore just about what we feel. I can forget sometimes the fact how disabled my dancing can look, if I have drank enough and know there is others on the dance floor too. Wedding dance is a bit different. You don´t really want to be drunk, you don´t want to do silly mistakes while moving on the dance floor and you do hope it also looks wonderful.

Mr J does not see a problem with my dancing. He knows what I can do and can´t do and acepts it. I also don´t think our wedding guests are going to judge the way we dance. I know this is only in my mind. But My mind does not let it go. The dancing course we had last saturday, I cried almost half the time (it lasted 6 hours). Why? Because I want to dance. I want to dance like i see dancing is. Whole body moving with the music, making it look like art.

I don´t know how to get foward with this. I have to eighter have a miracle and be able to walk and dance normally again or I have to change my mind to see, that dancing in a wheelchair is also art.

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